Dont know what to do ???

After the Semester 3 exam past... result out... see the result.. Good... but who can i share with.. I get such result but i not happy.. i never regret i withdrawn UTAR.. NEVER... cause now my plan was without my family finance help i can finish study and get certificate degree... Study is not important to me cause study just a form of a step for future.. how high you got in result when you study... can help in job... IF YOU DON'T CHOOSE JOB, i think nothing is impossible for all people... i saw many place vacancy in Singapore... because of so many ego people choose the job.. 

So hope someone will support me.. i just one i wanna she do.. but it only will come out from the dream... Ya, i can say got bored and enjoyed since i come to Singapore.. But i learn much more thing after come.. Plus i meet a girl in Singapore  who made me very shock once i met her in the first time... Make me think back my sad thing in early year in 2010... My friend give a hope to met her.. but it also destroy my hope at the same time.. 

Now i know.. the world is so big.. many girl i can see in the future.. but met a girl that getting similar was very hard.. but why i can met her.. What The Heck is going on.. one not enough need another one that make me mad... i already controlled myself stop thinking.. but once i saw her... HAIZ.. all gone... Luckily is not long and also last day for today we met.. Cause soon i will back to my world soon...Actually i need thanks my friend that introduce her to me but i also wanna kill him for make me depressed so suffer... but nevermind cause it happen..

Sorry i not a normal person.. Plus come with a w....h family will make people say me this and that.. but i wanna tell you all.. I rather like you all so happy then my life now.. You all wanna my lifestyle.. i gave all to you and feel by you all.. After 5 years old.. my body getting weird and weird until i so scare to myself.. Many thing i can't play, many thing i can't do, and many thing i can't feel.. I still remember three time make all people use a weird eye watching on me.. First time on secondary school.. I say something that i should not say make them scare and run away from me... Second time, in form 5, i help someone that i should not help make something happen in the future and Third time.. in Utar midnight playing games with my friends... sorry to all my friends... many thing i cannot tell.. plus don't shock of my result cause actually.... i wanna end it lei.. i got friend chat with me now...

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Friend pls click it when see is important ok THX

another thing i wanna tell all my friends in Utar..
Wai Lap        Ghee Giap    Zhen Hui
Tse Siong      Ming Qian    Boon Kang
Kai Yuan      Ching Wei    Kian Wee
Jun Yuen      William        Sam Wong
Shi Wei        Valentine      Joey
Chris Yap    Kevin Lee    and others

Now days H1N1 is back so you all pls find nearby clinic or hospital that you know and appear for vaccine

cause our minister said
    In Malaysia, there is still no vaccine available to public to protect against Influenza A(H1N1) virus.    However, Influenza A(H1N1) vaccine is currently in production overseas and may be available for the public in Malaysia in the near future.   

    so after august 2010 maybe will have vaccine available in malaysia and it will open to public so i hope you all take it as important news for your family.. thx to you  all and hope you happy and healthy life.. and also find your another part happily without any problem..     ^.^

~For YOU~

After the news spread in the ntv7 about H1N1.. just few second i cant start my job...

Zzzz i need sit in my house and waiting to die.. i so sienz already plus need to stay at home without going to work.. 

For me stay at home will make me more stress and suffer.. can anyone help me.. why semester break is a suffer thing for me first semester i will happy because i have my another part to accompany me.. 

But semester 2, i lost her in my heart i very sad.. actually i so miss her.. until now i still worry about her life in Johor..cause now the H1N1 disease spread so fast again in Malaysia.. 

I scare her got anything.. i hope she get what i mean.. anyhow although i never talk to her and see her but for me, she still my friend that i dont want her got anything.. i already give her my necklace that protect me since i in 1 years old. i dont want her got anything and hear anything from her bad condition..
I just wanna her stay healthy until old.. from beginning i together with is to give her a happy life that she lack in her family now.. after a few month i keep think  about that problem, lastly i can comfirm that actually no need me give her the happy life.. other guy also can give her..

So i hope she will find a guy give her the best life. if let me know the guy bad to her i wont let him off so easily.. cause she got a hard life since she lost her father in form 1.. i dont want her suffer from the pain anymore.. sorry, maybe you broke with me because i not good enough.. i too many disadvantage in my life.. so maybe you dislike and cant accept my problem.. and i cant chnage the problem it cause i cant make it.. sorry.. remember take care yourself starting now as i say to you last time.. i not play with you.. please