Dont know what to do ???

After the Semester 3 exam past... result out... see the result.. Good... but who can i share with.. I get such result but i not happy.. i never regret i withdrawn UTAR.. NEVER... cause now my plan was without my family finance help i can finish study and get certificate degree... Study is not important to me cause study just a form of a step for future.. how high you got in result when you study... can help in job... IF YOU DON'T CHOOSE JOB, i think nothing is impossible for all people... i saw many place vacancy in Singapore... because of so many ego people choose the job.. 

So hope someone will support me.. i just one i wanna she do.. but it only will come out from the dream... Ya, i can say got bored and enjoyed since i come to Singapore.. But i learn much more thing after come.. Plus i meet a girl in Singapore  who made me very shock once i met her in the first time... Make me think back my sad thing in early year in 2010... My friend give a hope to met her.. but it also destroy my hope at the same time.. 

Now i know.. the world is so big.. many girl i can see in the future.. but met a girl that getting similar was very hard.. but why i can met her.. What The Heck is going on.. one not enough need another one that make me mad... i already controlled myself stop thinking.. but once i saw her... HAIZ.. all gone... Luckily is not long and also last day for today we met.. Cause soon i will back to my world soon...Actually i need thanks my friend that introduce her to me but i also wanna kill him for make me depressed so suffer... but nevermind cause it happen..

Sorry i not a normal person.. Plus come with a w....h family will make people say me this and that.. but i wanna tell you all.. I rather like you all so happy then my life now.. You all wanna my lifestyle.. i gave all to you and feel by you all.. After 5 years old.. my body getting weird and weird until i so scare to myself.. Many thing i can't play, many thing i can't do, and many thing i can't feel.. I still remember three time make all people use a weird eye watching on me.. First time on secondary school.. I say something that i should not say make them scare and run away from me... Second time, in form 5, i help someone that i should not help make something happen in the future and Third time.. in Utar midnight playing games with my friends... sorry to all my friends... many thing i cannot tell.. plus don't shock of my result cause actually.... i wanna end it lei.. i got friend chat with me now...

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