Dont know what to do ???

After the Semester 3 exam past... result out... see the result.. Good... but who can i share with.. I get such result but i not happy.. i never regret i withdrawn UTAR.. NEVER... cause now my plan was without my family finance help i can finish study and get certificate degree... Study is not important to me cause study just a form of a step for future.. how high you got in result when you study... can help in job... IF YOU DON'T CHOOSE JOB, i think nothing is impossible for all people... i saw many place vacancy in Singapore... because of so many ego people choose the job.. 

So hope someone will support me.. i just one i wanna she do.. but it only will come out from the dream... Ya, i can say got bored and enjoyed since i come to Singapore.. But i learn much more thing after come.. Plus i meet a girl in Singapore  who made me very shock once i met her in the first time... Make me think back my sad thing in early year in 2010... My friend give a hope to met her.. but it also destroy my hope at the same time.. 

Now i know.. the world is so big.. many girl i can see in the future.. but met a girl that getting similar was very hard.. but why i can met her.. What The Heck is going on.. one not enough need another one that make me mad... i already controlled myself stop thinking.. but once i saw her... HAIZ.. all gone... Luckily is not long and also last day for today we met.. Cause soon i will back to my world soon...Actually i need thanks my friend that introduce her to me but i also wanna kill him for make me depressed so suffer... but nevermind cause it happen..

Sorry i not a normal person.. Plus come with a w....h family will make people say me this and that.. but i wanna tell you all.. I rather like you all so happy then my life now.. You all wanna my lifestyle.. i gave all to you and feel by you all.. After 5 years old.. my body getting weird and weird until i so scare to myself.. Many thing i can't play, many thing i can't do, and many thing i can't feel.. I still remember three time make all people use a weird eye watching on me.. First time on secondary school.. I say something that i should not say make them scare and run away from me... Second time, in form 5, i help someone that i should not help make something happen in the future and Third time.. in Utar midnight playing games with my friends... sorry to all my friends... many thing i cannot tell.. plus don't shock of my result cause actually.... i wanna end it lei.. i got friend chat with me now...

                                                                          ~End~

Friend pls click it when see is important ok THX

another thing i wanna tell all my friends in Utar..
Wai Lap        Ghee Giap    Zhen Hui
Tse Siong      Ming Qian    Boon Kang
Kai Yuan      Ching Wei    Kian Wee
Jun Yuen      William        Sam Wong
Shi Wei        Valentine      Joey
Chris Yap    Kevin Lee    and others

Now days H1N1 is back so you all pls find nearby clinic or hospital that you know and appear for vaccine

cause our minister said
    In Malaysia, there is still no vaccine available to public to protect against Influenza A(H1N1) virus.    However, Influenza A(H1N1) vaccine is currently in production overseas and may be available for the public in Malaysia in the near future.   

    so after august 2010 maybe will have vaccine available in malaysia and it will open to public so i hope you all take it as important news for your family.. thx to you  all and hope you happy and healthy life.. and also find your another part happily without any problem..     ^.^

~For YOU~

After the news spread in the ntv7 about H1N1.. just few second i cant start my job...

Zzzz i need sit in my house and waiting to die.. i so sienz already plus need to stay at home without going to work.. 

For me stay at home will make me more stress and suffer.. can anyone help me.. why semester break is a suffer thing for me first semester i will happy because i have my another part to accompany me.. 

But semester 2, i lost her in my heart i very sad.. actually i so miss her.. until now i still worry about her life in Johor..cause now the H1N1 disease spread so fast again in Malaysia.. 

I scare her got anything.. i hope she get what i mean.. anyhow although i never talk to her and see her but for me, she still my friend that i dont want her got anything.. i already give her my necklace that protect me since i in 1 years old. i dont want her got anything and hear anything from her bad condition..
I just wanna her stay healthy until old.. from beginning i together with is to give her a happy life that she lack in her family now.. after a few month i keep think  about that problem, lastly i can comfirm that actually no need me give her the happy life.. other guy also can give her..

So i hope she will find a guy give her the best life. if let me know the guy bad to her i wont let him off so easily.. cause she got a hard life since she lost her father in form 1.. i dont want her suffer from the pain anymore.. sorry, maybe you broke with me because i not good enough.. i too many disadvantage in my life.. so maybe you dislike and cant accept my problem.. and i cant chnage the problem it cause i cant make it.. sorry.. remember take care yourself starting now as i say to you last time.. i not play with you.. please

Happy or unhappy :-) or )-:

I so happy that i can watch movie with all my friends twice a day... one is "Ais Kacang Puppy Love" & IP MAN 2.. thx you all give me happiness this three sem... Although sometime will make big problem.. we still happy and enjoy... this is the first time ever that you all give me that you really treat me very good. but got one thing i need to stop it was the rumour.. plus ARUBA... i will be single back and until now.. still dont have mood going on to other girl ^.^

"so ARUBA other people ba.. but first must call me wo... wakakaka.... "

from long long time i already said to stop the rumour to prevent people misunderstand... so now after yesterday you all should understand and receive all the meaning ok... dont make you best friend "me" tired and stress up oh.. let me go happily ok... dont make me suffer and go unhappy...

you all also know i love to laugh and love to smile... you all also dont wanna see sad JACK LEE appear in front of you de ma... Adrian Tan Kai Yuan~~ am i right??

WAI LAP.. no body will dont care you... cause we can meet each other very often, so sad to you also no use... ok...

TWO long rows ticket for twio movie ^.^

Left one is IP MAN 2.

 RIght one is Ice Kacang Puppy Love

The third semester i very happy with a girl... all cant make it but i not very sad and not feel suffer because we still best friend.. i hope she will get the guy she love next coming semester and pass and score all two subjects at the same time.. AND dont try to repeat in semester 4 because NEED MONEY oh~~

SORRY to lie you that the doll and the cake.. i just dont want the situation turn bad making by my all friends..

just a little present for you..

First time lie you also dont have the last time... so you dont so angry oh~~

Be happy and smile always...

Hope your third dream will come true although all of us dont know what you wish...

Hope you arrive your hometown happily ^.^

This also other last memories and i will take care other thing you give me... cause i dont want the momeries destroy by me....

Hope you like the squirrel find  love and live happily and like the green dinasaur always happy every year when you birthday and hope every years all your friend will celebrate with you and always give you a big surprise... remember dont because of fat dont wanna eat food and eat maggi.. cause maggi more fat than other food plus not good for your hair... eat less spicy food to control your stomach and take care of your nose if start allegy.. just take care and have a healthy life in anyway & anyplace.

Suffer***

I sick i still cant sleep. Now already 4.50am on 16 March 2010... I suddenly had a bad dream. Not me wanna dream. Don't know why will appear.

I don't know how to say. I still remember, When form 3, we start our love. Did you all believe, every night i need to call her. You all know why?? Her mother always scolding her, and because of her brother she get scolding by her mother. She always cry and sms me ask me to call her. I never think anything and just call her and convince her. That time she say, 'This world only me love her and care her'. She really like me and she say i always can make her happy. I have my risk to call her and get scolding by my family non stop. But i can happy with her. Now day, she can say. Even friend, she will one word also don't wanna say to me.

Form 4, she cant get good result in PMR. She drop my A class to B class. I say and i promise her, Form 5 she sure can get back A class if she study hard can i go convince the teacher. I use whole year planning with my friend to get her in. At last i never lie her. She really can get back to A class and study with me. She so happy and hug me. Now day, she say. She only remember what i do wrong, others thing she all forget and so easy say. She a forgetful girl.

When i dance in school for a small competition, actually is I been force by someone cause form 5 don't have participation. That time she sick with, her word, she don't wanna dance and ask me go to dance. She won't jealous. Now day, she say. That time i did not call her dance and find other girl dance with me. She angry me whole week. She say i already do wrong. ????

When finish our form 5 and got our results, she say what she wanna study hard cause she get bad result. She say she wanna me teacher ask me support her to Johor, without think, i promise her. She ask me company her sms when she need me. I did everyday even i busy sometime. All my friends saw me non stop sms even i doing assignment. Now day, she say. When i call her ask her chat with me, she say she busy can close my phone so fast. 

When at her home, she say she love me so much and ask me anything happen don't live her. That time, many thing happen i try my best help her solve and convince her. Every time she got a problem ask me, that time i promise her i will teach her grow up and she can solve problem herself. She say she want. I start my teacher life to teach my little lovely student. Now day, she say. She never ask me to teach her she also not happy like this, I wanna tell her. Not all thing can come so early without a hard work. But at last i never say cause i don't want hurt her.

That time she say other than me she won't touch any guy, if i broke up with her she also won't so fast love other, i tell her this world many will happen, because that i try my best and promise her to make this love longer and longer until 4 years. Now day, she say. All thing and she say she already not remember and ask me forget all of it. Is this she say to me like this ???

When I got NS in form 5. She say that three months don't know how to past. I promise her. I try my best get the phone and first person i will sms her. I did and she so happy. She say. I really love her so much and she won't forget the thing i sacrifice to her. Now day, she say. Just because of me not in good body health so just only together with me.

When i back from NS and i got surgery in Pantai Hospital. She come and visit me. But that time i know she wanna cry out but she scare her mother i understand so i silent and did not say anything. That time i already very not feeling well after do the operation. But i kept made her smile and tell her i nothing. Now day, she say. anything happen to me she won't care and don't want know.

15 March 2010. I sick after back from dinner. I so cold and wanna a person to chat only. But what i get is when talk only a while she also feel so hard to chat. Now all thing so different. All the thing above i just wrote only 5 to 10% of it. I don't know why i will sacrifice so many for this girl. Am i too love her. I really don't know i try my best already she say not happy i also can't do anything. Until now my fever never go down. I wanna sleep and rest but scare to close my eye. I very scare. I can't do anything with her word. I wanna forget it but all the thing i saw and hear. I can't do anything. 

Just a LIAR

Four years we have been together... I think we really live happily from starting so i do all my thing and put all effort into the relation.... But now i only know all is a liar..... World was so cruel... how you love her... but lastly you will get pain.. I know why some boy love play girl... or some boy love gaming more than girls.. cause game can make you happy and computer is noob. It won't cheat you. But human is different.. How you do also she just together with you because she scare alone.... She cry when broke up because she lost people company and lost a helper. But one she get a new one... Only one thing will do. KICK YOU far far away without a word. When together with you. She sure say 100% love you. But you really feel 100%??

You must divide it with 100 then the answer will appear. Not all girl will like la. Sometime boy also.. I damn hate those boy who play girl.. They more worse cause they will divide it for 1000. But one thing can confirm that boy always the hurt one than girl...


No one know what happen. This is the world with a LIAR. For me now i really scare all the girls in this world because i got two incident in a year....

Lonely*

Three day i play like hell with my friends. I think i should start my study already. Before too late, with ROW and Dota help me a lot. But today 13 March 2010, i suddenly not happy at all when i wake up from my sleep. Maybe something should not happen already happen, and yet i can feel it. Nevermind, i hope i really can forget the pain later. So boring when stay in kampar for two weeks.

Just yesterday i finish half of my assignment with my buddy which is same group with me. All answer already try but yet need to ask our lecture Miss Devagi. Last thursday, i playing snooker and pool with my friends. But my skills getting worse already. Maybe long time never touch the cue from last semester. I need more practice. Haiz...

Exam is near, Week 4 coming a mid-term test for my one subject. Another one on 31st for March. everything is so near including her birthday and my birthday. After four years, i think this is first year i celebrate my birthday lonely. But i hope her will happy with her life. Nothing can stop her to do the thing to success. 10 days from now my birthday. The day is near but i won't forget this year of my birthday, cause a hard hard memory for me in this 19 years. I don't know who will accompany me to past this day cause many people won't know my birthday except her. But now, i think she already forget 100% of me. But nevermind, i still got myself to past this birthday happily. 

March, a month that i really happy for 4 years, but now is the worse month for me in 12 months. Everything is change. I make it change to reduce her pain and love from me. Cause i don't wanna her because of me sad and cry one more time. Fate can't change by human. We need to accept all of it. Time is near and  my time is short. This all thing happen in lightning force.

Long long time never write blog, today is the best day to write because i free................