~I am Homeless Boy~~

Yesterday i never slept for whole night, worrying about my result. This few day i try to study my problem solving and programming. Even note i already wrote out for myself and find many information in internet. For can see it. Plus with my mood-less day i also need to study like hell. 3AM at night, i really can't manage myself and vomit out sixth time blood. ==||| i really sienz jo. Today 25 February 2010 i back to Utar take the form with my friends Wai Lap. You all ask him how suffer we run here and there. Block A to Block J after that Wrong block then back to Block F give money to the finance department. Then need walked back to Block A just for hand out the resit. Utar not a small place if you walk. Then i cycle back to westlake have my breakfast on 10 something. After that, run back to eastlake pack my thing and walked to the nearby bus stop.

This called life. I can't think anything. I so tired already. I think i can back home have some happy time with my mother talk and laugh but after back from Ipoh Parade. The result that i dream never will happen. She never understand my feeling. I know, my family very love me all plan for me, all for my good, not enough money then gave me money. But i don't want this. I just hope they can see me study at the room and living room not keep said the same to me. (Ask me study) 

Why they can't see what i did in my computer. i reading the note in the computer not playing game. In their heart computer only open the screen is for gaming. Why they can't understand. I just wanna that. I don't want money. I don't want other type of happy, i just wanna them see me study hard in CNY, CNY i never go out more that one day. If go out. Go out with my family. Only one that day is just wanna eat with the person i love and gave her something that all. Just that day. Even got prove because i meet my friends William and Louis in Jusco. Now this is the thing i left in my mind because nothing can make me happy and had warm feeling to me now.

  This is the thing she left to me also is her last present for me that she buy in the Johor. Every time see i feel very have energy to study but some time i will cry in front of this. Misunderstand forever no return. I can't do anything.This is the thing i left in this world. No more thing is more important to this. This thing represent my personality. I wanna be a dragon that fly out this world and build another world for my family and her. My Memory. 





 Now i homeless. I no mood wanna back home already. Just a simple thing for them also can't do. " Just see what i do everytime when i open my computer and i silent without click the mouse that time i concentrate in my study that computer provide me note inside the screen.

I very very tired and i can't sleep at all. This is the time i need wait for me to exhausted my all energy than i can sleep a good sleep.